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Friday, November 06, 2009
This is starting to scare me.
Earlier this evening, I have this one thought;
"I'd better go back home (and have a good rest, as tomorrow is gonna be another long day) rather than hanging out with him."
And I obey it.
Omg.
I can feel my social life is "fading", bit by bit.
This really freaks me out.
p.s. Careful with what you say (esp when you repeat it again and again and again), cause it will come true.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I missed being in a team, all sweaty and talking trash.
Aihh... the good old sweet days. I was so used to being with a group of people, wherever, whenever. Even if I feel lost, I am lost with this bunch of good... comrades?
It was the loveliest feeling.
As I grew older, I think it happened almost naturally too, the comfort cushion, that usually protects me from any harm, or pain, thinning. Nowadays, I experience the blow, harder than usual. And harder each time too. It toughens me in some way, also breaks me in some way. This is when my dad would say, "That's Life."
Haha right.
People move on with their life, no doubt about it. Some choose not to. But secretly, they actually do, just that their heart is playing tricks on them. So they can be called human. :)
I have been trying to catch up with reality, almost three weeks now, and still struggling – with work, with relationships, with energy, with muscle aches, with confidence. Oh my, this time the blow is harder than usual! I hope it'll only get better!
(Thanks to dearest friends who NEVER think that I just talk alot of crap. Haha)
The first “culture shock” I got was not the weather. It was the food.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
It’s four days now since I’m back. And I manage to check almost all the items for my first 5 things I wanna do!
Two things I hate about the aftermath of a (good) long holiday are that I'd dread the snap-back-to-reality moment and to have to write post(s) about it. I really do. Haha
During the trip, I have this notebook which I scribbled on alot, especially when I am alone, pouring my heart in it. Although it's impossible to record everything in the book, but I think it has enough details about abit of everything during the trip. It keeps me company. So maybe one of these days I'd post snap shots of what I wrote here. It's gonna be ugly tho...
I mean the handwriting.
p.s. yes, yes, pictures and videos coming up on FB!
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
And so, I will be back in two days time!
The first thing I am gonna do when I got back is OBVIOUSLY meet my family!! Had no idea I could miss them this much. It felt like homesick-at-Jasin all over again. It was baddd. Haha
The second thing would be driving! I know this sound mad, but if only you know how much walking I had done here – have a blister in the size of a 50 cents coin under each feet! Apparently, European definition of "walking distance" is a 30 minute fast-paced walk. YEAH, FUCK THAT. Haha no kidding man. No wonder they have nice, sexy legs! Imagine the walking they do! ;D
The third thing would be I want a McD meal. I want HUGEEEEEEEEE BEEF burger! And all the other food I am not having here! Cant even stomach a simple tuna sandwich in Paris. Fancy goat's cheese anyone??
The fourth thing would be, I wanna go to fucking swim!!!!!!! I wanna swim, I wanna swim, I wanna swim!! It's crazy here, FALL IS LOVELY but the water temperature drives me mad. Haha I WANNA SWIM. I feel like "itik kering" here!! Dyingggg slowly, dyingggg.
And the fifth, I wanna meet my angels. All of my friends that had miss me as much as I have missed them. Weh, seriously. :)
There you go, the FIRST five things! xxx
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
"It's a story about a boy meets girl, the boy fell in love, the girl doesn't. It's not a love story, it's a story about love."
I saw this movie last night with Syah, here in Dublin, and it was a disturbingly good movie, telling the disturbing truth.
I cant stop thinking about it even when I strolled around the park near the apartment today. I cant stop thinking about how sucks it must have felt like to have your feelings, dreams, hopes crushed.
When it's no one's fault, things just happened.
I rarely talk about love. It is one of the things that I just keep within myself. Sometimes, I do believe in love... it'll happen, blah3. But sometimes I really do think it's crap. So is fate. If two people wanna be together, they should. And that's it.
But apparently, life is never that easy. Which I don't freaking get why.
It's when you need some other people to tell you that, the one you thought is the one, is not.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
it's coldddddddddddddddd up north!
hola peeps. been abit busy these days, i guess i wont be able to update as much as i wanna. i somtimes, update my FB whenever i get the chance to. so far the trip went well, tired like hell but i guess that's a small price to pay. cant wait to update you guys with the pics and the VIDEO. haha
of course, lotsa things hap. almost stole an orange juice, being labeled drunk harhar, sexual harassment (??!!!), laughing so hard that i have a sore throat now..... or wassit because it rained at Coldplay concert at Wembley, not sure!
as we are moving north the weather gets (a lil) rubbish. but it's all good. the cold AND THE WIND is not forgiving!!
to my family, i miss you guys, esp my mom's dishes. yes, my mom dishes is actually a member of my family LOLLOL
to intan, i so fuckign wish you re here.
it's impossible to name everyone in this small space. but yea i do wish all of you HAPPY EID, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN :))))))))))))
lovelovelovelovelove,
raje.
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