RIGHT. Thanks Yoi. LOVE THE QUOTE.

It's when your priorities got jumbled up. It's when you didn't say what's really on your mind... regardless whether in a polite way or not. It's when you think negatively about other people. It's when you are afraid of ppl's judgment. It's when the thought of being on your own, alone, dependant only on yourself scares the hell outta you. I'll be going to Europe.. in less than 10 days and I'm not prepared for it. I mean, WE are not prepared for it. Not packing yet. Not making any kind of lists that you can ever imagine when you go on a trip. Not ready to celebrate Raya away from home. Not knowing alot of things. Not even booked any accommodation or transportation. Not knowing what to expect. Not knowing where to go visit but at the same get to have cheap food. Not know what to think! It's exciting as your cat can imagine getting free food and soft sofa everytime/day, but it's also pretty disturbing. Dont get me wrong, I'm not freaking out. It's totally obvious, as I dont really think about it. I even forget about it. I never feel this way before ANY trip in my whole life. And this is Europe I am talking about... In reverse, the fact that I'm not stressed out, getting all hyped, excited, or even freaking out, is what bothers me. Well kinda... p.s. Umm yeah. This is less fun.

I am so full of myself I have a blog(s), fb, twitter, notes, not to mention loadsa friends and now a book to just to say what's on my mind, and heart. Just to talk about myself. Just to whine.

Nope. I don't let go of the past so easily.

So what are you not forgiving?

p.s. A great hang out with friends never failed to cheer me up. Up…? Let's go up!

When I got 7 can of happiness, FOR FREE.

When I get to be treated like a King.

When I am with some idiots.

When I have homemade Laksa.

<toodamndelicioustohaveanypictakenijusteatitrightawayLOL!!>

Haha I know, I have time for drawing.

p.s. Hate to countdown time. Aihh. 

Earlier today, my belief about life was challenged. And I'm glad it happened. Not that I know how will it actually impact my life, maybe it won't at all. But I'm just glad.

It might not be the most superstitious thing you ever heard. But it could be the silliest.

Well, I used to believe that for something good that happened in life, one bad happening will follow... I thought life should have a "balance" like those "Life is a roller coaster, or like a wheel, it has its ups and downs"... that kinda shit. Of course I also believe the reverse of that, for everything bad that happened in life, one good thing will follow. But obviously, the first one has worse affect to me than the later one.

Thus, I tend to feel (too) careful sometimes. Not to be too (damn) happy. 'Cause I know believe that something bad will follow, regardless what it is. Although yeah, I rarely "control" how I feel, but the thought of it will 100% come across my mind atleast once!

And today, I found that I have misinterpreted those phrases.

"Not necessarily. You can have all the good things happen to you all the time. And you can have all the bad things happen to you all the time. It's how you live your life that will determine it. It's how you look at life, your attitude towards life."

I shall live with (even more) confidence now.

p.s. Thanks dad.

-Fix You, Coldplay.

I was on my way to a place, to do something, driving, listening to happy sound. I smiled, laughed. And to realize that I was alone, on my own, is pretty freaky. Haha

Then suddenly, I think what if I 'd still do that something, just somewhere else. Somewhere that (actually) will cost me even much more hassle, BUT, I will definitely get what I want for that day!

Thinking, and thinking, hesitating, contemplating…

But ahhh… what the hell?

So I changed my plan, just to satisfy me!

And it feels soooo fucking good. To just do what you want.

To just do what I want.

What I want.

:)

p.s. Have you ever, scream loudly YESS!! after getting what you want, but only to find that everyone is looking at you? I have. And it feels damn good. :)